One of the hardest things to find is advice for something that’s never been done before. That’s when you know only God has the answers
I make music as if it’s the last song ima ever do
2014 has been heavy. I’m 4 days away from my 24th birthday. I have an insane headache as I write this and am suffering from a heavy case of chronic insomnia. Circumstances have led me to have to make music alone. Emotional toil visits me like a next door neighbor in need of missing ingredients. I literally trust about 7 people that I deal with regularly. I’ve lost a great deal of weight and self-confidence. I grow tired daily and the path seems to get foggier. Happiness is the most temporary of my emotions, while pain seems to be almost permanent.
Crazy thing is, the pain drives me to search for its expiration date. After all, it can’t last forever, right? I guess this comes with the territory of doing what God leads you to do within a purpose & a calling. Making music never hurt until I decided to make it with the intentions to help souls. The album I started 2 years ago is finally coming to close and is probably some of the deepest content that I’ve ever heard. My aim as an artist has always been resolution, as opposed to a mere canvas for current feelings, unsolved issues, or unfulfilled desires. I feel an opposition that is extremely spiritual….almost something that says “you CANNOT finish this”….Because I am breaking all the rules. I’m learning that trailblazing of any sort will reinforce any feelings of loneliness that you already have. I know the grammar in this is trash and the thoughts aren’t well organized. I just need to vent. Some days i feel like I’m on the verge on innovative greatness. Other days would suggest that I’m just getting old with serious issues with women and self-esteem.
I just hope all this will be worth my while in the end….whether that’s the end of this season, my life, or eternity
Me & @soul_of_muzik workin on that @itstrusound record…none of them notes made the record mind u lol #video
All this water……..